crash into me

falling over and over and over. everytime i think about you. i fall over and over again. falling down. falling straight towards the floor.

looking through your window. staring at you. im tied up and twisted. thats exactly the way i like to be.

because im the king of the castle. and you my dear. are a dirty rascal.

but i still want you to crash into me.

catalyst

what do you think inside your head? i wanna know.
so you think that this could end up breaking you?

your life is a timebomb set to explode.
for once you should listen or care what i think.
or i'll be gone before you can blink.

everyone knows that you're afraid of missing out.
and i know that its hard for you to swollow down.

a world you created set to explode.
for once you should take what im willing to give.
or you'll stay stuck in the web you're trapped in.

its a chance.
you should take.
and i know its not an easy one to make.
you should trust the ones that are closest to you.

everyones told you, over and over again,
you're making the BIGGEST mistake of your life.
i keep telling you, the one that you left behind,
you're making the BIGGEST mistake of your life.

lost without you

are you afraid of leaving tonight?

cause i am.

i am lost.

i am lost without you.

lost without you

are you afraid of being alone?

cause i am.

i am lost.

lost without you.

here's your letter

cut the skin to the bone. fall asleep all alone. hear your voice in the dark. lose myself in your eyes. choke my voice. say goodnight as my world falls apart.

cant let this kill me. let go.

heres a letter for you. but the words get confused. and the conversation dies. apologise for the past. talk some shit. take it back. are we cursed to this life

cant let this kill me. let go. i need somemore time to fix this problem.

im talking to the ceiling. my life just lost all meaning. do one thing for me tonight. im dying in this silence.

the last star left in heaven. is falling down to earth. do you still feel the same way? do you still feel the same way?

cant let this kill me. let go. i need somemore time to fix this problem. i need more time.

just tonight

i dreamt about being scared. i dreamt about being lost. i dreamt about being all alone and having no one else out there in the world to turn to. i woke up feeling helpless and scared. i was sweating and panting. i was so afraid to get out of bed. i thought about how it would feel to really be alone in this world. to be all by myself. to turn to the people around you only to have them turn their backs on you. i treasure every person i know. i treasure every person that returns a warm smile. i treasure the fact that i am not alone. that i can face tomorrow because i have my friends around me. the fact that i can open my eyes each morning to a brand new day and know that i will always have my friends to turn to in times of need encourages me. i havent posted anything so mushy thus far. but i wanna thank my friends for making my life significant. without the people around me, i wouldnt have been able to make it this far. you know who you are guys.

可愛女人

我每天每天每天在想想想想著妳
這樣的甜蜜　讓我開始相信命運
感謝地心吸引力　讓我碰到妳

漂亮的讓我面紅的可愛女人

溫柔的讓我心疼的可愛女人

聰明的讓我感動的可愛女人

壞壞的讓我瘋狂的可愛女人

only one

broken this fragile thing now
and i cant pick up the pieces
ive thrown my words all around
but i cant give you a reason

i feel so broken up
and i give up
i just wanna tell you so you know

made my mistakes let you down
and i cant hold on for too long
ran my whole life in the ground
and i cant get up when you're gone

somethings breaking up
i feel like giving up
i wont walk out until you know

here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
theres just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only, only one

closure

its the end of another period of my life. another significant occurance that has made major impact on my outlook towards life. my attitude towards people. my perception of the world around me. remembering the smiles. remembering all the heart ache. remembering all the tears. remembering all the hugs. remembering all the good. remembering all the bad. all the hand holding. all the quiet hours on the couch. all the meals together. twas the best month. twas the best time i could have. twas happiness. twas pure bliss. even though this chapter of my life is coming to a close. its also the beggining of a new one. a new title for each other. a new title for the chapter. cheers BBF.

shortchanged

why do i feel as though im being underrated. why do i feel as though im giving and not recieving. why does life feel like a huge theatre play. im standing on stage waiting to be torn apart by the audience. im being looked upon by 100 eyes and i freeze. to feel as though the people around you couldnt bother to even drop a line or bother to check up on you. feeling as though your life isnt significant enough to even have a simple phone ring. not even once. NOT EVEN ONCE.

bliss; vindicated bliss

im happy. i really am. i know wat i have and i am appreciative of it. i really want the people around me to know that im happy. genuinely happy. i know for certain that i hold something dear and that thing holds me dear as well. bliss. truly bliss.

slide along side

suddenly, i really feel like heading down to the beach. the soft sound of the waves crashing down onto the sea shore. the feeling of the sand in its powder-most form, caressing your toes. having the most perfect person by my side to enjoy the glass sky filled with beacons of light. lying on the sand. on a blanket perfect for 2. jazz in the background. cuddling in the light of the moon. enjoying the warm seabreeze. not having a single care in the world. not knowing how much time has passed us by. to feel the salty sea water brush against our feet. having sand in our hair. being so carefree. oh how i wish i were at the beach.